changing my mind set and how we came to it.

so now I have this whole game plan well in action I have forgot about one important thing.......

I am going to have to change my mind set of what animals are on the farm and what they mean to the family?. no longer can I just have pets everything thing on this farm will have to be more than that they have to be a means for our family to function.



so we started off with 3 sheep here. all bottle fed, I went for 2 sheep came back with 3. the third was a small under weight ewe that the breeder said she did not except to live. she found the ewe out in the field as a triplet and the mother just left her. so we had a huge road ahead of us already. she lasted here syringe feeding her every half and hour in order to keep her organs from shutting down. the first 24 hours we had real hope then she crashed the next morning. being a ewe and to be used for babies int he future I called a friend who lives a hour away and we made a plan to sub q her and try and save her so I rushed to get the other 2 lambs bottle fed and off I went.

not a hour later my husband texted me to tell me the other ewe was bloating. with no way to get home in time she died. I turned my energies to the failing ewe in my hands and lost the battle with her as well.

OMG what had I done I had not even started and I killed 2 of our meat sheep. so this is where the mind set has to change. theses animals are no longer cute sweet brown eyes babies, they are meat and nothing more.

I do think this may be my biggest hurdle to over come to not see them with feelings and minds and all that because if I do I can not bring myself to in the end butcher them for our family. so until I have to cross that road I will care for them as best I can with a kind hand and big heart